Running to and fro.....whom do I serve....

Running to and fro....whom do I serve.....

Yesterday afternoon, I arrived at biofeedback, and the counselor said, "you look as tired as I have ever seen you".    Thanks!!! But, I felt that way also...who was i  serving???? Why was I tired??  Running to and fro, just at my desk......I had been working on the computer, and my iPad and had two phones going, digging through five different projects and being ambushed by  emotions again and again....

I have written that grief comes in pieces before and it was hitting in pieces again....a word here and there, a decision or lack of decision,  a one sided discussion-not two sided like it has always been, a song, a phrase used from the past, tears of remembrance,  praying for others who are in dire  circumstances or going through tragically rough times....

Things work through with time....centering back on Whom   I serve,   Peace that only 

God brings to the soul....am I sharing enough with others about what God has done, is doing....will the generations coming up know what God did and is doing in my life or for them??? Will they know that their grandfather was a good steward? A good provider?

 A follower of God?

Then at small group last night, someone said,,,,"you just never know the ripple effect  of your life and decisions ....."  Right through the heart ......the theme of 

Don's funeral....pieces....whom do I serve?    Calm in the midst....peace....what are the ripples ?  Can someone look and see the service or just the busyness??? 

I thought of these verses read earlier in the week, I don't want the generations coming not knowing The Lord or what He had done....for us , for our family....tools in others' lives....

Thank you....again and again for your Word, Your reminders, YOur peace, Your grief, Your forbearance..Your provision,  Your love and compassion....Your supply.....

Judges 2:10

New International Version (NIV)

10 After that whole generation had been gathered to their ancestors, another generation grew up who knew neither the Lord nor what he had done for Israel.

Joshua 24:16-24

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16 Then the people answered, “Far be it from us to forsake the Lord to serve other gods! 17 It was the Lord our God himself who brought us and our parents up out of Egypt, from that land of slavery, and performed those great signs before our eyes. He protected us on our entire journey and among all the nations through which we traveled. 18 And the Lord drove out before us all the nations, including the Amorites, who lived in the land. We too will serve the Lord, because he is our God.”

19 Joshua said to the people, “You are not able to serve the Lord. He is a holy God; he is a jealous God. He will not forgive your rebellion and your sins. 20 If you forsake the Lord and serve foreign gods, he will turn and bring disaster on you and make an end of you, after he has been good to you.”

21 But the people said to Joshua, “No! We will serve the Lord.”

Then Joshua said, “You are witnesses against yourselves that you have chosen to serve the Lord.”

“Yes, we are witnesses,” they replied.

23 “Now then,” said Joshua, “throw away the foreign gods that are among you and yield your hearts to the Lord, the God of Israel.”

24 And the people said to Joshua, “We will serve the Lord our God and obey him.”