Tuesday, June 30, 2026

 I am  not trying to sell this book or study . 


I just wanted to share this story..many of us have lived  or are living in desperate times…who do we turn to?


God as our father will welcome us home , feed us and continue to love us…


Thank YOU…


Ruth Graham fled her marriage 24 hours after her wedding day. She drove home expecting her famous father, Billy Graham, to say "I told you so." He said two words instead, and they changed her life.


Most Christian women would never guess that the daughter of Billy Graham, the most famous evangelist in modern American history, has been married four times.


That her first husband was unfaithful for years before she found out.


That her rebound marriage lasted three months.


That her third marriage was to the love of her life, who told her ten years in that he didn't want to be married anymore.


That her fourth husband was a man she calls, in her own words, "a narcissistic sociopath."


If anyone had reason to feel like a Christian failure, it was her.


The daughter of America's pastor. Quietly carrying the kind of story most Christian women would be terrified to tell at a Bible study, let alone on national radio.


But she tells it.


She tells it because at some point in the middle of all of it, she made the drive that changed everything.


She had married her second husband against her parents' direct advice. Within 24 hours of the wedding, she knew she had made a catastrophic mistake. She had to flee the state. She had to go home.


She tells the story like this.


"I wondered what were they going to say to me? What was I going to say to them? Would they say we told you not to. You made your bed, now you have to lie on it. 


We're tired of fooling with you. And as I rounded the bend in my parents' driveway, my father was standing there. 


When I got out of the car, he said welcome home."


Welcome home.


That was it.


No lecture. No I told you so. No conditions. No silent disappointment radiating off him while he held his tongue.


Two words.


Welcome home.


She said it changed her life.


She said it gave her, for the first time, a picture of what God was actually like. Not the stern stick-wielding judge she had carried around in her head her whole life. The Father in the driveway. Waiting. Already loving her. 


Already glad she came back.


And here is the part of her story that I cannot stop thinking about.


For most of her adult life, before that drive, she would have told you that Jesus was her security.


That's what she said. On national radio. In her own words.

"I would have told you Jesus is my security. But that wasn't true deep down where the secrets are kept."


Read that line again.


I would have told you Jesus is my security. But it wasn't true deep down where the secrets are kept.


How many Christian women feel exactly that.


You would say the right answer. You would even mean it on Sunday morning, when the worship is good and the sermon is hitting. But deep down, where the secrets are, where nobody can see, where you can't even let yourself look most days, you know something isn't right.


You're a Christian. You've been a Christian for thirty years.


And you're still chasing security in the wrong men.


And you're still chasing approval in the wrong rooms.


And you're still chasing peace in the bottom of a wine glass or the bottom of a shopping cart or the bottom of someone else's life that you're trying to fix.


And you would never say any of that out loud.


Ruth Graham did. She said the quiet part out loud. And it's the reason her story is one of the most healing stories any Christian woman can hear.


She didn't say it from a place of being lost. She said it from a place of being found.


But here's what most Christian women never figure out, and what nobody in church seems willing to say out loud.


The reason "Jesus is my security" doesn't feel true in the secret place isn't that you don't believe it.


It's that you don't actually know him.


You know about him.


You've heard about him your whole life.


You've sung the songs and quoted the verses and taught the lessons.


But you've never actually sat with him long enough, on the page, in his own Word, to know him well enough that "Jesus is my security" stops being a Christian answer and starts being a fact you'd bet your life on.


Because here's what the Bible actually shows you, page by page, when you finally read it slowly enough.


A God who stands in the driveway.


A God who watches the prodigal coming a long way off and runs to meet him.


A God who tells Hagar, when she's run away into the wilderness alone and hopeless, that he sees her.


A God who tells David, when David is at his absolute lowest in the Psalms, that he is not done with him.


A God who tells Peter, the night after Peter denied him three times, to come have breakfast on the beach.


A God whose entire Bible from Genesis to Revelation is one long welcome home.


But you cannot know that God by reading three chapters and closing the book.


You cannot know him by Googling a verse when you need one.


You cannot know him by listening to sermons about other people's relationships with him.


You have to actually go in. Slowly. With context. Week by week. Until the woman in the secret place finally hears the same two words Ruth heard.


I know because I was that woman.


I went to church every single Sunday for my entire adult life.


I had a Bible that I genuinely tried to read.


I started reading plans in January more times than I can count.


I made it through Leviticus barely holding on, wondering what animal sacrifices have to do with my life.


I read Romans and closed the book not being able to explain a single thing I had just read.


I read the Psalms and felt comforted in the moment but couldn't tell you two days later what I had actually learned.


Year after year, the same cycle.


Start in January. Slow down by March. Quietly stop by April.


And carry that shame, that quiet guilt of being a Christian woman who still didn't really know her own Bible, all the way back to December.


When I'd tell myself again that next year would be different.


And the whole time, just like Ruth, I would have told anyone who asked that Jesus was my security.


But deep down, where the secrets were kept, I knew it wasn't true.


I was looking for security in everyone but him.


I was looking for love in places he had already promised to be.


I was looking for a welcome home in driveways that didn't have him standing in them.


The problem wasn't my motivation.


It wasn't my discipline.


It wasn't my faith.


It was that I had never actually met the God of the driveway on the page.


That's when I found something that changed everything.


A 52-week guided study that walks you through the entire Bible, one theme at a time, from Genesis to Revelation.


Before you read anything each week, it gives you a short explanation of exactly what you're about to get into.


Who wrote it.


When.


Why.


What was happening in the world at the time.


And how every page connects to the God who has been standing in the driveway waiting for the woman reading it.


Genesis: not just the story of how it all started, but the story of how God showed up for hurting, ashamed, hiding women from the very first page.


Psalms: the actual prayers of people who would have told you, on a good day, that God was their security. And the prayers they prayed on the bad days when they had to find out if it was actually true.


The Gospels: who Jesus really is. Not the Sunday school version. The Jesus who told Peter to come have breakfast. The Jesus who told the woman at the well her whole story without flinching. The Jesus who stands in the driveway every single time.


For the first time in my life, I read my Bible and I met the God Ruth Graham met in that driveway.


For the first time, "Jesus is my security" stopped being a Christian answer and started being something I actually felt deep down where the secrets are kept.


I'd open it in the morning and not want to close it.


I'd read something and think about it all day.


Verses I had read dozens of times suddenly meant something completely new, because I finally had the context to understand what they were saying.


And slowly, week by week, something shifted.


I stopped chasing security in places that couldn't give it to me.


I stopped trying to outrun my own shame.


I started to actually feel, in the secret place where it counts, that God was the Father standing in the driveway.


Ruth Graham says it like this.


"He gave me unconditional love. And that's what everybody wants to feel. Unfortunately, so many people don't have that father. That's why he is a picture of what God is like. We can come to him, run to him, in his arms, battered, bruised, broken, sinful, and he just welcomes us."


Battered. Bruised. Broken. Sinful.


That's most of us, on most days, whether we admit it or not.


And the God of the Bible is in the driveway.


But you'll never feel it deep down where the secrets are kept until you actually go meet him on the page.


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Welcome home.

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Monday, June 29, 2026

Love…

 Love…


Was reading through these verses…usually we study them separately, but adding them together is profound…


Thinking about the fatherhood of God…our relationships with one another…the basis…what we need to exhibit….


John 15:9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. 14 You are my friends if you do what I command. 15 I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other.


1 John 4: 7 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. 8 Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. 9 This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. 10 This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. 11 Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. 12 No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

13 This is how we know that we live in him and he in us: He has given us of his Spirit. 14 And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. 15 If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in them and they in God. 16 And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.

God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. 17 This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

19 We love because he first loved us. 20 Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen. 21 And he has given us this command: Anyone who loves God must also love their brother and sister.

1 John 5

Faith in the Incarnate Son of God

5 Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God, and everyone who loves the father loves his child as well. 2 This is how we know that we love the children of God: by loving God and carrying out his commands. 3 In fact, this is love for God: to keep his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, 4 for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. 5 Who is it that overcomes the world? Only the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.


1Corinthians 13:4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.


Thank YOU…


The love of God…


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Sunday, June 28, 2026

 Road trips 1 and 2…


I was awakened early this morning thinking of my two wonderful road-trips again, how God blessed me with so many friends in various parts of life and the world…

I wish I could have seen more people on each trip, those whose lives impacted mine in so many ways…those who lives intertwined in raising kids together, or going to Bible studies together…lived through joys and sorrows together…just bumped into each other over various events…shared similar interests….those who encouraged…those whose husbands had interests…those who mentored us or we mentored….and on and on…


I have said over the years that it is hard to go back…but, this time it was amazing to go back…rehash lives and share what is going on….see growing lives, see how God is working now…


There are sorrows, joys, new family members, new jobs, new challenges…


None of us is “sitting, soaking and souring “ as one has said…we need each other to bear one another’s burdens, the encourage, the build us up in the faith, to remind us of the kindness of God, to hold on to, to pray, to share resources, to plod along the path of our lives together and so much more. God supplies various people at various seasons, some for the long haul and others for the short times He deems and I am so thankful for each…


Thank YOU….


Colossians 3:2 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

15 Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. 16 Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. 17 And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.


Romans 12:15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn. 16 Live in harmony with one another. Do not be proud, but be willing to associate with people of low position. Do not be conceited.

17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.


Ephesians 4:1As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2 Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3 Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as you were called to one hope when you were called; 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6 one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.


Friends…


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Friday, June 26, 2026

 Wine grapes…


Part of the valley I live in is used for growing wine grapes…this year there is a concern because the lack of rain and snow, that the canals to water the grapes will be shut off early, about the time the grapes need water the most…it may be problematic for the grower’s livelihood if the grapes don’t reach maturity for wine making….but, even with this threat ahead, they, the pruners, are still pruning, caring for the grapes in hopes that the growing crops will reach maturity….


Isn’t that what we need to do…grow..even in times of drought or hard times ahead….not letting the “what ifs” rule…the great Gardener, God has our back…we need to remain in Him…


“In the Old Testament, grapes symbolized Israel’s fruitfulness in doing God’s work on the earth….In the Passover meal, the fruit of the vine, symbolized God’s goodness to His People”. Bible study notes…


Isaiah 5:7a The vineyard of the Lord Almighty
    is the nation of Israel,
and the people of Judah
    are the vines he delighted in.


John 15:1 I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.

5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. 8 This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.


Thank YOU…


You are the vine…

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Thursday, June 25, 2026

 Road trip 2…


I haven’t written and need to catch up….


I am on road trip 2…back to the state where my husband and I spent most of our married life, Nevada….all of our children were born here…my husband’s vocation shined here as a geologist in the gold stare…


We have long time friends here from church, the community, school, and his work, my work….we covered a lot of ground, exploring the mountains and valleys for the elusive mineral treasures.


It is fun to see how the landscape has changed with men literally moving mountains 390 tons in one truckload at a time at various mines…


But, the treasure for me personally is the people we met and visited with…friends who have gone on with life as I have, met various challenges, joys and sorrows…watching families grow up, change…


My husband’s best friend took time to regale one of my grandsons with adventures and tales of spending  time with my husband over the years working in geology, hunting , friendship….that was a precious  time as my grandson was born after my husband’s passing and never knew him…what a gift…


We took time to visit our favorite mountains, the Rubys, hiking and picnicking with friends….catching up on life…what a gift …


Then on the “biggest little city”, Reno, for an event at the University of Nevada…I haven’t been back there for years. ..new buildings…, etc….good food, good speakers…fellowship…my husband and I both graduated from this college years ago, lived there for a short while after graduation…….


When we going to college, we could buy a prime rib dinner for $2.99 and watch amazing musicals. We didn’t get into gambling…


When my husband  was undergoing cancer treatment, we spent months there as well going back and forth for daily radiation treatments….wonderful church services…


Some would say, it s hard going back to old “stomping grounds “…and it is for some things, but this time it was good….


We endured some hard stuff  in the past  at these places, but the good over powered those….we learned a lot more about God and His  faithfulness, His love, His giving nature, His comfort and so much more….


Thank YOU, 


My Help…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXJJ3d1pG4U&list=RDtXJJ3d1pG4U&start_radio=1





Wednesday, June 17, 2026

 


Full extent…


 John 13:1 Now before the Passover Feast, Jesus knew that His hour had come [and it was time] for Him to leave this world and return to the Father. Having [greatly] loved His own who were in the world, He loved them [and continuously loves them with His perfect love] to the end (eternally).AMP


13:1It was just before the Passover Festival. Jesus knew that the hour had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he loved them to the end.( he now showed them the full extent of his love, loving them to the end)….NIV..


Reading this one verse, it brought to mind others in the Word who lives were recorded to the end, Jacob blessed his sons…

David advised Solomon,

1Kings2:1 I am about to go the way of all the earth,” he said. “So be strong, act like a man, 3 and observe what the Lord your God requires: Walk in obedience to him, and keep his decrees and commands, his laws and regulations, as written in the Law of Moses. Do this so that you may prosper in all you do and wherever you go 4 and that the Lord may keep his promise to me: ‘If your descendants watch how they live, and if they walk faithfully before me with all their heart and soul, you will never fail to have a successor on the throne of Israel.’


Jesus washed his disciples feet…serve others…God coming as a man, washing feet like a lowly servant….loving them…to the full extent…


Thank YOU…


The servant song…


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PMCaPGozu90




Tuesday, June 16, 2026

 Romans 8:14 For those who are led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. 15 The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” 16 The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17 Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

Present Suffering and Future Glory

18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. 19 For the creation waits in eager expectation for the children of God to be revealed. 20 For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope 21 that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the freedom and glory of the children of God.

22 We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. 23 Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have? 25 But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

More Than Conquerors

31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;
    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.