April 13, 2012

 

April 13, 2012…

We knew we were in the final countdown of days with my husband with us…he would eat, but no talking any more…

I have notes of awaking in a panic, muscles tense, or spasms over and over again…such tension even though I was at peace…my body was tired, my mind was tired…company each day which was a blessing, felt so loved and cared for…ironing out funeral plans with Don’s best friend, funeral home…deciding what to do in the coming months…to be closer to family…

“When I give you no special guidance, stay where you are.

Concentrate on doing your everyday tasks in awareness of my Presence with you…I designed you to depend upon me…be thankful for the quiet days…you are richly blessed when you walk trustingly with Me…” Jesus Calling , Sarah Young…April 13…

Reading back over these notes of the last days of my husband’s cancer journey has been intense as I start my own…reconfirming that God walked the valley with us each day, guiding, giving peace, comforting…bringing those around us we needed, bringing family and friends together…was so amazing….my husband was such a social person, loving people to be around, listening and interacting when he could…our apartment was the party room…even though death hung there waiting…

Thank YOU….

 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God's power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time. In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of your faith, the salvation of your souls. 

He was foreknown before the foundation of the world but was made manifest in the last times for the sake of you who through him are believers in God, who raised him from the dead and gave him glory, so that your faith and hope are in God. 

since you have been born again, not of perishable seed but of imperishable, through the living and abiding word of God; for“All flesh is like grass and all its glory like the flower of grass.

The grass withers,and the flower falls, but the word of the Lord remains forever.”

And this word is the good news that was preached to you.

1 Pet1:3-9,1Pet.1.20,1Pet.1.21,1Pet.1.23-25

 Seek the Lord and his strength;seek his presence continually!

Ps.105.4

Here again…https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsIfGc15H7g